Uththan

Trigger Warning / Disclaimer

This story contains themes of career loss, identity crisis, and the emotional struggles of redefining one's self-worth outside of professional achievements. It explores the feelings of confusion, uncertainty, and pressure that can arise when facing a significant life transition. If you are struggling, please consider reaching out to a mental health professional—you are not alone.

Reader discretion is advised. If you find such themes triggering, please proceed with caution. 

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Disha’s gaze remained fixed on the resignation letter. The typed words blurred before her eyes as her mind wandered back to the days before everything had changed—the promotions, the late nights in the office, the long meetings where she felt seen and important. She had thrived in that world, her career a reflection of everything she had worked for. And now it was slipping through her fingers like sand.

“I used to have goals,” she muttered, her voice barely audible. “I used to know where I was going. I knew exactly what I wanted.” She paused, the weight of her own words sinking in. “And now? I don’t know who I am anymore. I feel like… I’m not even in control of my own life.”

Arvind, who had been standing by the door, watching her with quiet concern, sat down next to her. He shifted uneasily, unsure of what to say. His own career was demanding, and while he admired Disha’s ambition, he didn’t fully understand the grief that came with losing something so central to her identity.

“You’re not alone in this,” he finally said, his tone steady, though his eyes revealed the anxiety he hid behind his calm demeanor. “We’ll figure it out together. You don’t need to have everything figured out right now. Take your time.”

Disha shook her head. “Time? I’ve had time, Arvind. I’ve been sitting here for weeks, lost in thought, doing nothing. I feel… useless. Like I’m wasting away.” She stood up abruptly, pacing across the room. “I feel like I’m watching my own life from the outside. Everything that once made me proud… is just gone.”

Arvind followed her, his voice gentle but firm. “Disha, you’re still you. You haven’t lost everything. You’re still here, and that’s what matters.”

Disha stopped and turned to face him, her eyes wide with frustration. “But you don’t understand,” she said, her voice rising. “This job—it was my everything. It was how I defined myself. Without it, I don’t know who I am anymore. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do.” Her chest tightened, and she squeezed her eyes shut, trying to block out the overwhelming sense of emptiness that filled the room.

Arvind reached out to touch her arm, but she pulled away instinctively. “I just need to… I need to figure this out on my own,” she whispered, her voice breaking.

He stepped back, letting her breathe. “I get it, Disha. But shutting yourself off won’t help. I know you don’t want to hear it, but maybe you need to let yourself be lost for a little while. You don’t have to have all the answers right now.”

Disha glanced at him, her lips trembling. “I don’t know how to be lost.”

Arvind gave a small, sad smile. “None of us do. But we get through it. And you will too.”

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Later that night, Disha sat on the balcony, staring out into the darkness. The city hummed beneath her, the lights of the buildings flickering in the distance like stars that had long since lost their shine. She had always loved the view from here—the way the world felt smaller, more manageable when seen from a distance. But tonight, it felt like a prison. The walls of the apartment, once comforting, now seemed suffocating.

Her phone buzzed again, this time a message from Ashi. “How’s everything going? You haven’t replied to my texts. Don’t keep me in suspense!”

Disha sighed and set the phone down. Ashi’s optimism was like a bright light in a dark room, but it was blinding. Disha wasn’t ready for that kind of hope, not yet. She wasn’t ready to pretend everything was okay.

“Disha, come back to bed,” Arvind called from inside, his voice tinged with worry. “We can talk more tomorrow. You need rest.”

She didn’t reply, instead continuing to watch the city. It was funny, she thought. The city moved so fast, always in motion, and yet she felt stuck, as though her life had come to a halt. She longed to feel the rush again, the sense of purpose that had once defined her.

Her thoughts wandered to the days when she had felt invincible, when she woke up with a clear goal and a sense of pride in what she did. Now, she was filled with uncertainty and fear, unsure of what came next.

“Maybe I’ll just send it,” she muttered to herself, looking at the resignation letter once more. “Just… let it go.”

She picked up her phone, her fingers trembling as she hovered over the send button. But before she could press it, her mind flashed to something her Nani had once said: Sometimes, losing a part of yourself is the only way to discover the parts of you that you never knew existed.

Disha paused. She wasn’t sure she fully understood what that meant, but the words lingered, like a whisper of possibility. Maybe there was something else waiting for her, something beyond this grief.

For now, though, she wasn’t ready to let go. Not yet.

—

The next morning, Disha sat at the kitchen table, a steaming cup of tea in her hands. The warm liquid burned her fingers, but it was a welcome discomfort, grounding her in the present moment. Arvind had already left for work, and the house felt quieter than usual—almost as though it were holding its breath, waiting for her next move.

She glanced at the resignation letter again, still untouched, still sitting on her desk like a symbol of everything she was unsure about. The idea of sending it, of finally cutting ties with the job she had given so much of herself to, felt like a monumental decision. But what would happen afterward? Would it bring peace, or just more emptiness?

Her thoughts were interrupted by a knock at the door. Disha opened it to find Ashi, her best friend, standing there with a bright smile and a bag in her hand.

“I brought coffee,” Ashi said, holding out the cup as if it were a peace offering.

Disha smiled weakly and took the coffee, but didn’t invite Ashi in. “I don’t feel like talking much today,” she said, her voice flat.

Ashi’s smile faded, and she stepped inside anyway. “I’m not leaving until you tell me what’s going on.”

Disha sat down at the kitchen table, sipping the coffee but not tasting it. “I don’t know what I’m doing anymore, Ashi. I feel… lost. I can’t even think straight.”

Ashi pulled up a chair and sat across from her, her eyes full of concern. “I know you’re struggling, but this isn’t you. You’ve always been so sure of yourself, so focused. Whatever’s going on, you can get through it.”

Disha shook her head. “I used to be sure. I used to know exactly what I wanted. But now… I don’t even know who I am without that job. I don’t feel like myself anymore.”

Ashi placed a hand on Disha’s, her touch soft but firm. “You’re still you. The Disha I know is strong and smart, and yes, your job was a big part of you—but it doesn’t define you. You’ve got so much more to offer.”

Disha looked up at Ashi, her eyes filled with frustration. “But I don’t know what else I have to offer. I’ve spent my entire life building this career. And now it’s gone, and I feel like… like I’m empty. Like there’s nothing left.”

Ashi took a deep breath. “Maybe it’s not about finding something else right away. Maybe it’s about letting yourself grieve this loss. And then, when you’re ready, finding something new—not because you have to, but because you want to.”

Disha stared at the table, the weight of Ashi’s words settling over her like a blanket. “I don’t know if I’m ready for that yet. I feel like I’m falling apart, and I don’t even know where to start.”

Ashi squeezed her hand gently. “Then let’s start here. You don’t have to have all the answers today, or tomorrow. But you don’t have to face this alone either. I’m here.”

For the first time in weeks, Disha felt a flicker of something warm inside her—a tiny spark of hope. It wasn’t much, but it was a start.

—

Later that afternoon, Disha walked to the small park near her apartment. The sun was setting, casting a golden glow over the trees and the people scattered along the walking paths. She sat down on a bench, letting the cool breeze ruffle her hair. There was something calming about the simplicity of it—the sound of children laughing, the rustle of leaves in the trees, the occasional jogger passing by.

As she sat there, Disha thought about Ashi’s words. She had always been someone who prided herself on being in control, on having a clear path ahead. But maybe control wasn’t the answer anymore. Maybe it was okay to be uncertain, to be lost for a little while.

She looked around at the people walking past, all living their own lives, their own stories unfolding. Some of them looked happy, some of them tired, some of them lost in their own thoughts. And in that moment, she realized that they, too, were all carrying their own griefs, their own uncertainties. It was a reminder that life wasn’t about always having it together. It was about finding meaning in the mess, and allowing yourself to heal at your own pace.

Her phone buzzed again, this time with a message from Arvind: How are you doing, love?

She smiled, her thumb hovering over the reply. For the first time in a while, she felt like she had something to say. I’m okay. I’m figuring it out.

She hit send, and for the first time in days, she felt a tiny sense of peace.

—

The days that followed were slow, and Disha gave herself permission to move at her own pace. She spent more time with Arvind, going on walks and talking about anything and everything except her career. She met with Ashi regularly, not for advice but just to sit together in silence or chat about the mundane things in life. And gradually, she began to feel less like a stranger in her own body.

One morning, as Disha was having breakfast, she picked up the resignation letter again. This time, she didn’t feel the overwhelming urge to send it. She didn’t feel pressure to make a decision right then and there. Instead, she folded the letter and placed it in a drawer. It wasn’t the right time to say goodbye. Maybe it never would be. But for now, she was going to take things one step at a time.

As she closed the drawer, she realized something—her worth wasn’t defined by her job, or the title she held, or the expectations she had placed on herself. It was defined by who she was, by the way she treated the people in her life, by the kindness she showed herself in times of struggle. That was enough.

And maybe, just maybe, that was the beginning of finding her way again.

—

The days passed, and Disha felt like she was finally settling into a rhythm. She wasn’t rushing to make any grand decisions. There were still moments of doubt, of course, but they were becoming easier to handle, softer, like distant echoes. She was rediscovering herself slowly, learning to find joy in the smaller things—painting again, reading books she hadn’t touched in years, even spending lazy afternoons in the park with Arvind.

But then, one evening, a sudden email broke the fragile peace she had been nurturing.

The subject line read: “Urgent: Job Offer from Insight Corp.”

Disha’s heart skipped a beat. She hadn’t applied for any jobs in months. She hadn’t been looking for one. She clicked it open with trembling fingers.

The email was short, direct. “Dear Disha, after reviewing your exceptional track record at MiralTech, we would like to offer you a senior position here at Insight Corp. The role includes a substantial increase in responsibilities and salary, and we are confident that you will be an invaluable addition to our team. Please let us know if you are interested.”

Disha stared at the screen, blinking, unsure if her eyes were playing tricks on her. The email was real. The offer was real.

For a moment, time seemed to stop. Her breath came in shallow gasps. Everything she had been avoiding, everything she had been running from, had found her. The world had just handed her the very thing she had thought she’d lost—the validation, the career, the recognition. Everything she had worked for, everything that had defined her… it was all right there in front of her.

Her first instinct was to hit “Reply,” to thank them for the offer and tell them she was interested. It felt like an automatic reflex, something ingrained in her. She had been waiting for this moment, hadn’t she? But then, as her finger hovered over the keyboard, something unexpected happened.

The words she had written earlier, the ones from her resignation letter, floated back into her mind. The quiet moments she had spent with Arvind and Ashi, the small victories of getting through the day without feeling completely overwhelmed—those things began to shine in her thoughts, standing out like small beacons of light.

She felt a rush of uncertainty, followed by a strange sense of clarity. What was she really looking for? The offer was tempting, but the last few months had made her question whether she had been running toward success or away from something else. Was this job really what she wanted? Or was it just the familiar comfort of a path she had walked for too long?

In that instant, Disha did something completely unexpected. She stood up, walked to the balcony, and gazed out at the city below. The same city that had always felt overwhelming, like a labyrinth she couldn’t escape, suddenly seemed smaller. The noise of the streets felt distant. She took a deep breath, her fingers hovering over the email again, and without hesitation, she clicked “Reply”.

“I appreciate the offer,” she typed slowly. “But I’ve realized that the next step in my life isn’t about the career I thought I wanted. It’s about something more. I need to take time to explore what that is.”

She hit Send before her thoughts could change.

—

Later that night, as she sat beside Arvind on the couch, the weight of her decision still settling in, he turned to her with a puzzled look. “You… you turned down the offer?”

Disha nodded, her voice steady but quiet. “Yes. It’s not what I need right now.”

Arvind didn’t say anything for a long time, just watched her. Then, finally, he gave her hand a gentle squeeze. “You’re really doing this, aren’t you? I’m proud of you.”

Disha smiled faintly, the weight in her chest beginning to lift. “I think I finally know who I am again.”

—

The next morning, Disha took a walk in the park, her heart light, but her mind still buzzing with the possibilities of what was to come. She wasn’t sure what the future held, but she knew she was going to approach it differently. Not with the desperation to fill a void, but with the patience to let her true path unfold.

And just as she was about to leave the park, her phone buzzed again. She looked at the screen, surprised to see a message from Ashi.

“I think you’re ready for the next chapter.”

Disha smiled, pocketing her phone. For the first time in months, she felt something she hadn’t in a long time—peace. Not because she had figured everything out, but because she had finally learned to trust herself, to let go of the things she had once believed she needed to be whole.

The future was a mystery, but for the first time, Disha didn’t fear it. She was ready for whatever it brought.

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The End